Wednesday, 16 July 2014

Today's Nonsense

"—You think I'll weep;
Lynd Ward
No, I'll not weep: I have full cause of weeping,
But this heart shall break into a hundred
thousand flaws,
Or ere I'll weep; O Fool, I shall go mad."
"Gradually there settles down a dreadful, eternal silence of the cemetery. All go mad, without words, they realise what is happening within them, and make up their minds for the last shift: to hide their grief for ever from men, and to speak in commonplace, trivial words which will be accepted as sensible, serious, and even lofty expressions. No longer will anyone cry: "Life is a waste," and intrude his feelings on his neighbours. Everybody knows that it is shameful for one's life to be a waste, and that this shame should be hidden from every eye. The last law on earth is—loneliness..." 

Résigne-toi, mon coeur, dors ton sommeil de brute!

(Resign yourself, my heart, sleep your brutish sleep) 

-Lev Shestov: Apotheosis of Groundlessness


Tuesday, 1 July 2014

сигарета | мазохизм | Маяковский

(I don't plan on petting you, Dear Friends, with that very introduction).

Given my artless surroundings, it seems my contemporaries think I should be embarrassed about what they don't understand. And so at their wish, as a necessary form of masochism, I'm considering taking up smoking as a pastime. 

So I put the question to you, and don't worry, I will measure your response by 
its artlessness, and thus despise myself further,

Is this the right course to take? 

Bear in mind the neigh'sayers (I'm expecting a riposte from many a horses mouth)... will likely find themselves scorned, given, a) the artlessness of their reproaches for such an activity, and b) my determination to infuriate those who think they know better, since those same people really are the most artful of all prosaics, who quite frankly need an artistic slap in the face. 
I'm becoming hastily sickened by your artlessness but you'd still rather I digest it all myself. Hence why...

I Better take up smoking.

And when in hospital bed with a screaming heart, 
just dying to be
Don't be fooled. 
If this kind of masochism is 
the only way,
to live, 
then it is better  
to be alive now,
so to regret later on...



1, Smoking hasn't been banned
2,"Smoking is not a rational, informed choice of adulthood. Eighty percent of smokers start as teenagers as a result of intense peer pressure." As I have posited, quite on the contrary, its a rational deduction, given our surroundings; a slow process of self-immolation.
3, Thankfully I'll still be free/classified old enough to still be able to necessarily intoxicate myself.

It takes

quite a time,
to get to know people,
smoke many a packet of cigarettes
till you raise
that wonderful word
you're needing
from the deep artesian
folk wells.

-Mayakovsky, 'Talking with the taxman about poetry'